Wow! I can't believe we are in June already and we can expect to see Payton at any giving time now, how crazy is that?! I'm ecstatic that this whole pregnancy kick is closing in, I H.A.T.E. being pregnant, we've had it rough from day one!
I started getting really sick, I couldn't stand to smell anything cooking, I couldn't eat without throwing it back up, I would throw up like clockwork in the mornings, SO Justin and I decided that I was more than likely pregnant and we should make a doctors appointment. Turns out, I was 4 weeks in! It wasn't bad news at all for us, although young we wanted to start a family and be young parents - we both have good heads on our shoulders and we were ready!... or so we thought! I didn't have the "typical" pregnancy. I lost 51 lbs in my first two trimesters from being so sick, sick so much they actually started worrying about Payton! Finally during my third trimester I started picking up weight and getting us both healthy again. We have had problems from sickness to her trying to come to early three times! Why couldn't I have been normal? Anyway, now that we are in June I'm ecstatic! I want her out! NOW! I can't wait to meet our little Payton, to see what she really looks like, what habits she takes after me and which ones after Justin. I can't wait just to watch her sleep, and make the cute baby faces! I can't wait to breathe the sigh of long waited relief that everything is O.K. I'll be more than happy to wake up millions of times at night to feed her, change her, love on her anything she needs. I don't understand why people complain about that, I'm excited to be awoken by her needing me. I can't wait for everyone to come see her and love on her and give her all the attention they have been waiting to give her for a whole 9 months now! I'm not excited about the "baby blues" I keep hearing about, I think I've started early! Sometimes I'll sit and just think about her and how important to her that I am. Sometimes I'll end up in tears, well most of the time but it's not because I'm sad.. I'm happy, over joyed and still can't believe she's mine. I'm so blessed to have a wonderful family, husband and now daughter! God has blessed me more than I'll ever deserve. I hope I don't get the blues after she is born, hopefully I'll just have those pre-Payton. I love her so much already! I can't wait to kiss her and let her know she IS my life and will always be. I hope she picks a birthday here soon! =)
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